missing mom.

This is the strangest feeling ever. I guess it was different this time, actually having my mom to myself. And it was Mother's Day as well. Mom left to go home this afternoon, and my room feels empty. I miss my mommy. :'(

I'd have to admit I wasn't really looking forward to have my mother live on top of me for an entire weekend, even if it was the Mother's Day weekend. Shocking and not very nice, I know - but I'm being honest here. But surprisingly (to me, mainly) I had fun with my mom! We sat around and talked, I gave her a couple of foot rubs (so-called Mother's Day presents), we joked and told stories ... like she finally told me how she met dad. *lol* We cleared up lots of things as well, so that was good. And we spent this morning running around Northbridge madly buying asian food, I ended up stocking up on snacks. I think mom forgot that we didn't have a car or something, and we ended lugging an obscene about of food back to college. And we found a place that makes really good fish curry *yum*, but dammit they didn't have fish biryani today. Heh.

Bottom line = I actually really enjoyed my mom's company. Like, in an absolutely different way. Hm! :)

Guess that for many of you out there, you're reading this and thinking, "well yeah, so what?". Kinda hard for me to explain. I was never close to either of my parents, not really anyway, until maybe recently. I was mostly terrified of them until I found out, quite by accident, that they were entirely human and that they did actually care about what was going on in my brain. To a degree I'm still scared of them, due to the fact that integrated responses and behaviours don't just disappear like that *snaps fingers*. It's like taming an animal. Takes time I suppose. Trust isn't something you can buy, it's something you have to obtain. I keep secrets from them sometimes, mostly because I'm worried about how they'll react, or because I don't want them to worry needlessly, as they're apt to do.

Oh well. This is still a major paradigm shift for me.

Don't really feel like dinner... still kinda full from lunch. But I have ling yong pao. SCORE! :D