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confused.
Monday, November 21, 2005 @ 3:11 pm |
comment (0) You know what they say that the only people that can hurt you are the people you love? That's so true. But it also works the other way. The only people you can hurt are the people that love you. Then what a paradox if the people who love you, and whom you love, have conflicting interests regarding you! Who do you choose to hurt? What if you don't want to hurt anyone? What if you know that they trust you so much that they've left themselves so vulnerable to you, to whatever that you can do? What if you love them so much you never want to see them hurt? To never abuse their trust? What if doing what you really want leaves your already dysfunctional family in tatters? But then what if in doing what your family wants for you will ruin the lives of both yourself and the other individual, and that will very posibly scar you so that you end up in square where you were quite unable to let yourself love? What if you learn to love, in a way you never have before, to leave yourself so open and defenceless that you can be hurt? What if religion and life no longer compliment each other, what if "religion is dead"? What if you can feel God, and you believe in him, but church is not where you can feel Him, what if religion is a facade that hides God? What if you can't reach God there, but He's always been so real to you? What if you feel that religion is something that man made up so that God becomes a collection of obscure doctrine and a big long list of Do's and Don'ts? Why am I so disillusioned and why is life so complicated? |